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I鈥檓 not sure if it鈥檚 the pandemic, work being really busy, or something else, but I鈥檝e lost all motivation to do the sports I once loved. A year ago, I was training for ultramarathons five days a week and meeting friends to go rock climbing on my rest days. My weekends were stacked with camping trips and long, social hikes.
Then, the pandemic hit, the race I was training for got canceled, the climbing gym closed, and of course we all stopped hanging out in big groups. I got much more into gardening, baking, and home renovation. And, even as things begin to open up again, I鈥檓 finding it hard to embrace the sports I once聽loved. I find that I鈥檇 much rather spend a sunny Saturday in my garden or on a mellow dog walk with my partner than trying to send a project at the crag.
I know, I know: I should probably just embrace this new me. But I work in the outdoor industry, so there鈥檚 still a tiny part of me that feels pressured to get back into those sports again. Gardening is far less 鈥渞ad鈥 than running 50 miles or climbing sandstone, after all. What should I do?
First off: all of this is rad. Personalizing your home, growing your own food, walking with your dog(s) and loved ones? These things are objectively cool. I鈥檓 happy for you that you鈥檝e found great interests at this point in your life: things that help you feel grounded, and that are relaxing and invigorating at once鈥攅specially when so much has been changing around you.
To me, it seems like you鈥檙e adding to yourself, not diminishing yourself. It鈥檚 not that you鈥檙e not a climber anymore, or not a runner. It鈥檚 that you鈥檙e also a baker, a gardener, and a home renovator. We all go through phases, and it鈥檚 normal that the hobbies you鈥檙e drawn to will evolve with time; that鈥檚 how things stay fresh. You鈥檙e not throwing away your skills and experience by focusing on other interests for a while. You鈥檙e just maintaining a kind of natural balance.
In fact, if you stay true to the hobbies you鈥檙e drawn to, you might find that in another year you鈥檒l be completely obsessed with climbing or running again; you might even want to pursue them at a higher level. But if you force yourself to stick with something you鈥檙e not feeling at the moment鈥攅specially when the whole point of that activity is for you to enjoy yourself鈥you鈥檙e actually foreclosing your options. It鈥檚 a lot harder to come back to old interests with a sense of fun if you鈥檝e already burned yourself out on them.
That鈥檚 not to say that the pressure you鈥檙e feeling isn鈥檛 real. As a culture, we tend to glorify activities that are considered traditionally masculine (endurance sports; anything that involves jumping off a cliff) over activities deemed feminine (gardening; tending the home). The pattern extends far beyond the outdoor industry, of course, but you’re experiencing a particular microcosm of it. And I get it: bold adventures make great stories. But connecting with nature is about far more than free soloing鈥攁nd it鈥檚 no more outdoorsy to run an ultra than to take a casual stroll in the woods.
This is not to say that adventure sports are bad (or even overhyped!) or that gardening is good. The point is that they鈥檙e both good. The point is that the hierarchy of radness鈥攁ny sort of hierarchy鈥攊s subjective and artificial. (There鈥檚 a fundamental insecurity to maintaining a hierarchy, of course, that suggests that whatever鈥檚 on top of the pyramid might not stay there if the scales were leveled. Personally, I think adventure sports are inherently cool, and people will love them鈥攁s I do鈥攅ven if they鈥檙e not held up as cooler than other things.)
Working in the industry means you鈥檙e more susceptible to these pressures; you鈥檙e embedded in them every day, and there may be professional implications if, for instance, out-of-office socializing happens at the climbing gym. But it also means you get to help define the industry鈥攁nd if you鈥檙e feeling something, it means countless others are, too. There are plenty of people who have felt excluded from outdoor culture and spaces because the ways they want to spend time in nature, or the ways they do spend time in nature, aren鈥檛 the ways that are most visible or celebrated. And even small changes within an industry can help shift a space from exclusive to welcoming.
Professionally, it seems to me that you鈥檙e an incredible asset. You have experience across a spectrum of outdoor activities, and you can speak to a wide range of the ways that people experience the outdoors. The industry is stronger for having your perspective and skills. Frankly, what you do in your spare time isn鈥檛 your boss鈥檚 business. And if your friends don鈥檛 immediately recognize the coolness of your new hobbies, I bet few things will open their minds as quickly as a few slices of fresh bread.