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A few miles logged on Strava keeps two sisters, thousands of miles apart, together

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Running Kept These Sisters Close Through Tough Times

Not even a mile into our run,听Whitney鈥檚 shorts are already sopping from a sudden slip into the mud. In the tall grass, it鈥檚 impossible to see what our feet will actually land on鈥攎aybe a spongy hummock, a bowl of mud pudding, or a black puddle of unknown depth.

鈥淪orry!鈥 she shouts back to me, her pace quick despite the horrible footing, the baking sun, and the hot breath of humidity rising from the soggy sheep pasture we鈥檙e cutting through. 鈥淚 forgot how long this section was.鈥

Typical, I think. We鈥檙e so forgetful about the parts that suck.

I can tell my little sister is thrilled to show off her local trails听after moving to Wanaka, New Zealand. It鈥檚 December 2018, and my husband and I have flown down to visit as part of our honeymoon. But to get to the more scenic, craggy ridgelines of the 18-mile听, we have to slog through this bog first. At least we鈥檙e doing it together this time, I think.

Living on opposite sides of the globe makes it difficult to stay in touch, and I often worry about Whitney. Since she moved abroad nearly six years ago, phone calls are sporadic, and we see each other in person only twice a year at best. But running has come to serve as a kind of litmus test for the condition of our inner lives, whether we鈥檙e on the trail together or awarding each other kudos on Strava from thousands of miles away.

Since the district track meet my senior year of high school, when she was a freshman, I鈥檝e felt the push-pull of wanting Whitney to slow down so I can keep up, while听also wanting her to break through her own limits.

At 15 and 18, Whitney and I were look-alikes: two heads of white-blonde hair, two purple and gold uniforms, four legs blinding white from a winter spent indoors. Our shoes struck the track in sync as we turned the corner into the final stretch of the 800-meter district championship. We grew up best friends, and moving to a tiny new town in western Nebraska the previous year had cemented that bond. We could hear the small-town crowd鈥檚 crescendo as it听watched us pull away from the rest of the pack together, shoulder to shoulder, matching strides for the final stretch. At the finish, my body crossed the line a fraction of a body width ahead of hers for first place. I鈥檓 quite sure that was intentional on Whitney鈥檚 part, because she鈥檚 been ahead of me ever since.

That fall I left for college, but听we both kept running鈥擶hitney even faster in her final years of high school track, and me clocking laps around the Colorado State University campus or jogging in the foothills. After high school, we quit competing, except for the occasional 10K or half marathon. We occasionally caught up on the phone or by e-mail, but we grew in different directions, eventually keeping our heaviest burdens and darkest secrets to ourselves. It would be five years before we lived under the same roof again for a summer, when it all finally came out.


Sitting next to me on a park bench one summer evening in 2004, Whitney told me that through high school and college she鈥檇 been wrestling with an eating disorder that took root during high school track.

She鈥檇 come to live with me and my roommates after my senior year of college in Fort Collins, Colorado, and we鈥檇 been sharing a room for a few weeks. We sat in City Park, staring across the lake, though neither of us was听actually seeing it. At first I felt like punching someone鈥攍ike I could punish whoever was responsible for ripping away my little sister鈥檚 innocence. But as Whitney talked, I saw that she鈥檇 been blaming herself all along. It felt like a betrayal鈥攖hat running, this thing that should feel like freedom, could be part of something so insidious.

I had no idea how to help. I was getting ready to leave for a six-month stint working in Antarctica, part of听a vague plan to restart my adult life after severing ties with nearly all of my college friends. Trudging through my own mire of confusion and heartbreak, I felt empty-handed.

Each of the five years since my freshman year of college, I had dived deeper into a campus religious organization that eventually threatened to swallow my life entirely. Whitney and I grew up in a devout Evangelical home, and I鈥檇 looked for a church group to join right away in college, excited to make new friends and grow spiritually. At first the group felt accepting and supportive. I appreciated how informal it seemed, meeting in small groups at people鈥檚 homes during the week and having casual services together on Saturday nights. It听even had a rock band鈥攏ot something you saw in western Nebraska.

Trudging through my own mire of confusion and heartbreak, I felt empty-handed.

I moved up in leadership within the group, and gradually it asked more of me, and willingly I gave. More time. More commitment. More loyalty. I quit attending other campus groups and听doing recreational triathlons, and I cut way back on my own outdoor adventures. I eventually stopped hanging out with other students at all, unless I was trying to recruit them into the church group. The time commitment ate at my study hours, and my grades slipped. I took the church leaders鈥 messages to heart, to 鈥渢rust God for my schoolwork,鈥 not fully understanding what that meant听other than giving my time to the ministry instead of studying. My stress levels skyrocketed. Meanwhile, questions about the group鈥檚 dogma鈥攁nd my own faith鈥攕tarted to simmer.

Finally, I broke down. I鈥檇 been struggling with depression听and felt like a fraud leading others while my own faith was crumbling. Tearfully, I explained to the other church leaders why I wouldn鈥檛 just be taking a break for a couple weeks鈥擨 was leaving. For good. At 22 years old, recently graduated from college, this meant jettisoning nearly all my friends and everything else familiar in my life. Taking a janitor job at an Antarctic research base sounded like the perfect way to move on.

Boarding the military cargo plane to Antarctica, I welcomed the sensation of leaving everything behind. Except Whitney. Only a few weeks before, sitting on that park bench, I鈥檇 seen I wasn鈥檛 the only one who was fractured. Whitney and I had cried and held each other. She sounded like she was recovering, but I worried about whether she would have the support she needed in California during her final year of college. In my rush to escape my own problems, was I abandoning Whitney in her time of need?


In the dark, low-ceilinged gym at McMurdo Station in 2005, I beep-beep-beeped the button for the treadmill鈥檚 incline鈥攗p, up, up鈥攎y breath and my heart rate spiking with it until I couldn鈥檛 bear it anymore, and then down, down, down again. Desperate to stave off boredom, I jacked the pace up and down, and then the incline up and down, and then both. I鈥檓 sure I was driving anyone else in the gym nuts.

I ran because I could barely button my jeans, thanks to听the fatty cafeteria food and beer鈥攁nd I ran because running was the one place I felt like myself anymore.

Staying in contact with Whitney, or anyone, from Antarctica was more difficult than I鈥檇 anticipated. Six harried days a week I scrubbed showers, scoured toilets, and vacuumed floors. My roommate worked nights washing dishes, so on my days off, when I hoped to call Whitney or my parents, she was asleep in our tiny dorm room. I can count on one hand the number of times Whitney and I spoke on the phone during the five and a half months I was at McMurdo. A small computer lab in the hallway outside the galley offered infernally slow internet access, and lines of cooks, mechanics, and heavy-machine operators stacked up there on weekends and after shift changes. On the rare occasions I waited in the line, I usually found myself filling e-mails with mundane observations about station life:听I saw a penguin. I came down with a cold.

Hammering as hard as I could gave me a precious feeling of autonomy that I鈥檇 missed.

I began preparing my workout clothes before I left for work each morning, so I could quickly and quietly change from my bleach-splashed Carhartts into my fleece running pants. If the weather was mild, I trotted along the volcanic dirt roads and trails around the station. I skittered down along the harbor, where the icebreaker and cargo ship would arrive, circled听the hut built by Robert Falcon Scott, or scrambled up to the top of Observation Hill鈥攖he cone-shaped听volcanic mound on the edge of town that was topped with a memorial to Scott and his men, who perished on their return trip from the South Pole.

I entered a 9K race organized by the rec department听and surprised myself by sprinting to the finish for first place in the women鈥檚 division. Hammering as hard as I could gave me a precious feeling of autonomy that I鈥檇 missed. At the bottom of the planet, running quietly whispered to me, 鈥淵ou are still you.鈥 I wondered about Whitney, back in California, and hoped that she, too, felt like herself. Our scattershot e-mails were typically vague and, I knew, probably more upbeat than true鈥攂ecause typing out the words to express dark thoughts is like confirming their truth. Neither of us was听probably ready for that.


鈥淪low down, sister!鈥 I whispered urgently, refreshing the Los Angeles听Marathon website on my laptop. Back in Denver in 2007, I was starting a fresh life after Antarctica. I was also slowly rebuilding a sense of closeness to Whitney, who was transitioning from the frying pan of college to the fire of a Hollywood job and dating in L.A. She signed up for the L.A. Marathon, and when race day rolled around, I tracked her progress online.

Since my return from Antarctica, I鈥檇 taken every chance I could to visit Whitney. We ran along the creek from her Culver City apartment out to the beach, slowly catching up on months鈥 worth of news. I worried she was too nice to stick up for herself against manipulative film-industry figures and the selfish, grabby men she met online. I wondered if the toughness I saw in her disciplined running strides carried over to the rest of her life.

Just the way I鈥檇 poured myself into running in Antarctica, I knew that Whitney had been passionate about her marathon training. But as I paced around my 300-square-foot apartment, munching on toast and refreshing the race tracking, I worried that maybe she hadn鈥檛 taken good enough care of herself to push so hard. Had she been eating enough? Had she been training too hard? Was she drinking enough water? Her splits had been so fast.

My heart sank as several more minutes passed and no mile-23听check mark appeared by her name.

I knew it was a hot day, and her miles had ticked by so quickly. One by one, I saw her pass through the checkpoints, astonished at her speed and willing that she could keep it up. I felt painfully far away.

At mile 23, the minutes started to stack up. Maybe she stopped to walk, I told myself. That鈥檚 probably a good thing. But I knew in the cells of my body, which share her DNA, that Whitney wouldn鈥檛 just quit.

My heart sank as several more minutes passed and no mile-23听check mark appeared by her name. Helpless with worry, I finally received the crushing news from my parents over the phone: Whitney had collapsed on the racecourse. Still jogging as she approached an aid station, she鈥檇 apparently wobbled, swayed, and then crumpled onto the adjacent grass, blacking out. My eyes filled with tears thinking of the medic who鈥檇 been there instead of me to scoop up her chilled, sweaty body.

Over the course of the next couple of months, she saw a doctor and got checked out for a possible stress fracture. Our parents feared she suffered from a heart problem. But to this day, she says that the collapse was a combination of not eating enough while pushing herself well beyond her body鈥檚 capacity; she didn鈥檛 accept it until she was lying in the grass alongside the racecourse, unable to recite her own address to the strangers huddled over her.


Ten years have passed since that painful marathon, but Whitney and I both still turn to running for its soul-soothing properties. Treading in her footsteps as we tour her favorite trails around her New Zealand home, I鈥檓 happy to see that Whitney鈥檚 learned a lot about taking care of herself in the previous decade. Each of her strong, confident strides on the Skyline Traverse reassures me.

Whitney left her job in Hollywood to travel and work abroad, eventually marrying an Australian man and settling in New Zealand. I lived in a van, traveling the American West for a year and a half with my now husband, eventually settling back in Denver. We each learned to fight for our own identities, and running has been a constant touchstone. Before each of our weddings, we planned ambitious trail runs to spend quality sister time together.

Aside from my husband, I only follow one person on Strava: Whitney. Even with our regular Skype chats and e-mails, Strava gives me the most visceral understanding of how my sister鈥檚 doing. When I can see where she鈥檚 been running, how far, how fast, how often, I feel connected to her. I鈥檓听comforted simply knowing she鈥檚 out there being her true self, strong and sweet.

As we finally pop up to the ridgeline above Wanaka, she points out different peaks across the saw-toothed horizon听and apologizes again for forgetting how tough the 5,000 feet of elevation gain would be. I鈥檓 surprised鈥攂ut then, not at all surprised鈥攁t how tough she is. And at how we always seem to forget enough of the hard parts to keep moving forward. Maybe, over all these years, running has simply been there to remind us of how strong we actually are.

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‘Downriver’ Is an Adventurous Lesson in Water Policy /culture/books-media/downriver-heather-hansman-review/ Mon, 01 Apr 2019 00:00:00 +0000 /uncategorized/downriver-heather-hansman-review/ 'Downriver' Is an Adventurous Lesson in Water Policy

Heather Hansman's new book is part adventure epic, part essay on the future of our most valuable resource in the western United States.

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'Downriver' Is an Adventurous Lesson in Water Policy

From the first paragraph of her new book听 ($25, University of Chicago Press), out April 1, Heather Hansman plops us right into the drink with her. She weaves journalistic research into the tale of her mostly solo 2016 pack-raft trip from the headwaters of the Green River, in Wyoming,听to its confluence in Utah. The book explains the history of the river and investigates its current threats, but it reads more like an adventure yarn than some of its cousins in the western-river canon.

As the greatest tributary of听the overworked Colorado River, supplies water to 33 million people, and it holds precious unallocated acre-feet of water, so it鈥檚 a lively illustration of the West鈥檚 battles over the resource听in an increasingly dry landscape. The river carries Hansman through Wyoming ranches, natural-gas fields, cities, and national parks, and she finds that seemingly everyone wants a piece of its pie. So she follows her curiosity, learning where the water goes鈥攁nd who鈥檚 fighting over what.

From Hansman鈥檚 speeding boat, we feel the river rise with an unexpected dam release that also floods farmers鈥 fields and flushes valuable trout from eddies where fishing guides take high-paying clients. From her seat at a public meeting, we feel the heat from farmers angry that endangered fish seem to carry more weight than they do when it comes to river policy and water use. 鈥淚 really thought the woman in the row in front of me was going to stand up and punch someone,鈥 Hansman told 国产吃瓜黑料. And we visit听the boom-and-bust town of Vernal, Utah, where, Hansman writes,听鈥渋f you鈥檙e a liberal or a paddler passing through, you can expect to pay a buck extra for your drink at George Burnett鈥檚 I Love Drilling Juice and Smoothie Cafe.鈥

Sitting down with water users all along the river, Hansman learns what鈥檚 at stake both upstream鈥攙ast amounts of agricultural landwith water rights changing hands in the near future鈥攁nd downstream鈥攃ities with increasing population and energy needs. She wades through the notoriously tangled weeds of western water law, explaining it in easy-to-understand terms, and she comes to grips with her own assumptions about what the western landscape should look like in the future, from flood irrigation on farmland to dam removal. Hansman, an environmental reporter and former raft guide, says her misconception going into the trip was that things would look more black and white. 鈥淚 think it comes back to the idea that nobody鈥檚 the bad guy,鈥 she says. The endangered-fish biologist, the engineer at the dam, the farmer upstream鈥攅ach wants to do good. 鈥淭hey鈥檙e just trying to do a totally different type of good,鈥 Hansman says.听And when opposing sides actually sit in the same room, she says, real work starts happening.

At a short-notice public meeting in Vernal, Hansman witnesses people鈥檚 anger simmering down when they feel heard鈥攚hen they see the other side as people, when they all have a chance to apologize and explain听and maybe even break down a few entrenched stereotypes. 鈥淚 think a lot of that comes from the face to face, getting everyone in the same room, which is really, really hard to do,鈥 she says. 鈥淎nd I think part of the problem [in the West as a whole] is that鈥檚 not realistic to do on a seven-state basis.鈥

Hansman brings a sense of humility to both her reporting and the river trip itself, admitting to moments of fear and failures of confidence during her weeks of solitude in an inflatable kayak. 鈥淭here were points where I was totally freaked out, especially the first couple weeks,鈥 she says. 鈥淚 was thinking, I鈥檓 not capable of this,听or What鈥檚 that noise in the night?听That was definitely there, but I didn鈥檛 want that to stop me. The fear factor felt reduced over time.鈥

By placing herself directly in the current of the river and taking us with her, Hansman gives us a more tangible understanding of what鈥檚 at stake. 鈥淚 had to be gone, to be in it, to see the good and the bad,鈥 she writes. 鈥淚 learned that you can care about places听and want to protect them, but then you鈥檙e fighting for abstractions.鈥 In Downriver, she makes the Green River鈥攁nd with it, all the water of the West鈥攋ust a little less abstract for the rest of us.

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How to Take Back Your Free Time and Have More Fun /health/wellness/how-take-back-your-free-time/ Tue, 06 Nov 2018 00:00:00 +0000 /uncategorized/how-take-back-your-free-time/ How to Take Back Your Free Time and Have More Fun

When was the last time you went for that midday run? Here's how to make it happen鈥攆inally.

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How to Take Back Your Free Time and Have More Fun

The school bus roaring past my house woke me from an email and social media stupor, and I looked up from my laptop to notice the sky growing dark. How? I whined to myself. I鈥檇 meant to sneak in a midday trail run, but somehow I was still cross-legged on the couch, running shoes still in the closet. I鈥檇 like to say I have it good as a freelancer鈥擨 work from home, and my schedule is flexible. And maybe I do get out more than most, sometimes heading to the trail midday in exchange for working late into the evening or occasionally packing up to work remotely. But I鈥檝e learned a frustrating lesson over the years: Having a flexible schedule doesn鈥檛 mean having free time unless I make free time. I think most Americans would agree that work seems to expand to fill the time allotted to it鈥攚hich, if we let it, would be all the time.

Countless legitimate obstacles stack up between us and our more adventurous dream lives: picking the kids up from school, deadlines, shifts that simply can鈥檛 get covered or swapped. But what irks me is when I know deep down I could be living more freely if I only managed my time differently. So I reached out to a time management expert to find out how to organize my life better to squeeze in more adventure. Laura Vanderkam is the author of and the upcoming . She blogs and hosts a podcast on time management and productivity. Here鈥檚 her advice鈥攚hich applies for both nine-to-five workers and freelance folks.

Change the Way You Talk About Your Time

鈥淲hen people say听鈥業 don鈥檛 have time,鈥 what they really mean is 鈥業t鈥檚 not a priority,鈥欌 Vanderkam says. Of course, you may have good reasons why more adventure might not be your top priority. 鈥淚f you鈥檝e got a brand-new baby, taking a two-week hiking trip in Nepal might not be top on your list,鈥 she says. But by choosing to say 鈥淚t鈥檚 not a priority right now鈥 instead of 鈥淚 don鈥檛 have time,鈥 you鈥檙e reminding yourself that you are in control of how to spend your time. It鈥檚 an empowering first step toward managing your time the way you want.

Make Your Downtime a Priority Just Like You Make Your Work a Priority

If you want to make free time a higher priority, whether it鈥檚 for a quick evening outing or a weeklong trip, treat it like the other important things in your life. 鈥淚 think that 鈥榮omething鈥欌攚ork, personal obligations鈥攁lways has a tendency to crowd out what is perceived as 鈥榥othing,鈥 like downtime and time for personally pleasurable activities,鈥 Vanderkam explains. How to counter that? Turn your 鈥渘othings鈥 into 鈥渟omethings,鈥 she says. Make commitments like joining a running club or rock climbing group. It turns fun into a specific item on your schedule, and having an obligation to other people holds you accountable.

Use Your Calendar More Than You Do Now

Even without blocking out a two-week chunk for a big trip, there are ways most of us can eke out more time for ourselves by being more efficient, Vanderkam says. 鈥淒ecide each day, before you end work, what are your top three to five priorities for the next day,鈥 she says, and place those items on your schedule. That specific planning can be the difference between working late and getting out in time for an evening hike. 鈥淚f you鈥檙e a freelancer, you might consciously block out open days in your schedule and not give these times away when people ask. I鈥檝e carved out a few open fall days to go on leaf-peeping tours.鈥

Become a Morning Person

鈥淔or most people, mornings are the best time for adding in things to your life that you鈥檙e not doing right now,鈥 Vanderkam says. For example, if you want to work out more, getting up earlier a few times per week will help you fit it in. But resist the urge to pencil it in every single day; fitting it into realistic windows will help you stick to it. 鈥淗onestly, things don鈥檛 have to happen daily in order to count in our lives,鈥 she says.

If Your Work Is Flexible or Freelance, Untether Yourself

Don鈥檛 be afraid to do a little work on your vacation if it means you can take a vacation you otherwise wouldn鈥檛. 鈥淢aybe half an hour in the morning a few times per week is enough to make you feel on top of things but will allow you to travel and take advantage of the flexibility that comes from self-employment,鈥 Vanderkam says. Sure, there are times when it鈥檚 important to totally unplug. But using any flexibility allowed to you can go a long way. 鈥淔or freelancers, your phone and laptop can truly be your friends,鈥 she says. 鈥淪ometimes they feel like handcuffs, but we can change this perception. If you can work from anywhere, why not try it?鈥

When It Comes to Taking Time Off, Done Is Better Than Perfect

鈥淢ost things matter less than we think they do,鈥 Vanderkam says. 鈥淐an you remember what you were doing on today鈥檚 date two years ago?鈥 It鈥檚 a good reminder, she says, that whatever is stressing you out right now most likely won鈥檛 matter much in two years. There will never be the perfect time to go for that hike or take a few days off. So stop looking for the perfect time, and instead just choose a reasonable one. 鈥淭he reality is that for the vast majority of us, Earth will not stop orbiting the sun if we go on that vacation,鈥 Vanderkam says. 鈥淲e are just not that important.鈥

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We Can鈥檛 Wait to Read Fatventure Mag /culture/books-media/we-cant-wait-read-fatventure-mag/ Mon, 04 Jun 2018 00:00:00 +0000 /uncategorized/we-cant-wait-read-fatventure-mag/ We Can鈥檛 Wait to Read Fatventure Mag

After a successful Kickstarter, the first issue will feature fat-identified women and nonbinary writers and artists.

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We Can鈥檛 Wait to Read Fatventure Mag

When Samantha Puc and Alice Lesperance tweeted a few months back to gauge interest in a space to safely discuss experiences of being fat in the outdoors, they didn鈥檛 know what to expect鈥攁side from the bullying they were already familiar with as writers and editors exploring that topic. When their tweet went viral and they received hundreds of responses, they knew they needed to do something, Puc says. A few months of editorial planning and a successful later, they鈥檙e announcing the launch of : a zine featuring work by fat women and non-binary creative people who 鈥渓ove being active, but don鈥檛 love toxic weight-loss culture.鈥

Social influencers like Fat Girls Hiking and Unlikely Hikers inspired Puc to start thinking about the project. At the suggestion of her spouse, she began looking at accounts like those when she felt negative about her body. She wanted to find other people online who were doing things in the outdoors and who looked like her.听

鈥淭here鈥檚 this whole thing about coming out as fat on the Internet,鈥 she says. 鈥淎nd I know a lot of fat folks who can identify with that鈥攚e learn very young how to take photos that are angled so you can鈥檛 see our chin or our neck or the chub of our cheeks, or the way our collar bones don鈥檛 jut, or our stomachs, or the way our arms are flabby. For a long, long time I felt like I didn鈥檛 even see fat people on the Internet鈥攁nd then these communities started cropping up.鈥

Seeing communities build up around those social media accounts pushed her to join with Lesperance to create a print publication. The first issue, which they plan to publish in October, will feature personal essays, advice pieces, illustrative work, and interviews with听celebrities like yoga teacher and body positivity advocate Jessamyn Stanley.

鈥淚鈥檇 really like to open up the conversation,鈥 Puc says. 鈥淭o say, hey, fat people can exist and live in our bodies and do things that you might not expect them to do and do it just because they like it鈥攏ot because they鈥檙e trying to shed 40 pounds, or whatever it is that people think fat people are going to the gym to do. There鈥檚 value in the fact that outdoor spaces are for everyone, not just for one type of person.鈥

Through the zine, she hopes to create a space for fat-identifying people听to find advice about outdoor pursuits from biking to camping. 鈥淚鈥檝e had so many people鈥攆at women specifically鈥攃ome to me and say things like, 鈥楢ll the dudes at my local bike shop are really thin and white, and aren鈥檛 going to understand how to help me navigate what bike works for my size and body. What do you recommend for me?鈥欌 听

But Puc also sees Fatventure Mag as an important read for anybody, regardless of their size, shape, ability or activity level. 鈥淥ne way to really cultivate respect and to open up outdoor and active spaces to others is to just let people be there, let them do their thing. When you鈥檙e听participating in some sort of physical activity鈥攁nd this goes for everybody鈥攊f you see somebody who doesn鈥檛 fit your vision of the kind of person who should be participating in that activity, and you want to open your mouth and you want to judge them for that, consider for a second that they鈥檙e there for the same reason you are.鈥

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So I’m Dating an Ultrarunner /running/so-im-dating-ultrarunner/ Thu, 05 Apr 2018 00:00:00 +0000 /uncategorized/so-im-dating-ultrarunner/ So I'm Dating an Ultrarunner

I never imagined I'd finish my first marathon by plodding laps back and forth across an empty parking lot with only my boyfriend, Brendan, to see it. No cheering fans. Nobody handing me a banana or a finisher's medal. Then again, when I laced my shoes that morning, I had no intention of running a marathon.

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So I'm Dating an Ultrarunner

I never imagined I鈥檇 finish my first marathon by plodding laps back and forth across an empty parking lot, with only my boyfriend, Brendan, to see it. No cheering fans. Nobody handing me a banana or a finisher鈥檚 medal. Then again, when I laced my shoes that morning, I had no intention of running a marathon.

Brendan had been traveling a lot and had recently been bitten by the ultrarunning bug, so I thought I鈥檇 join him for his weekend training run and share some quality time. His training schedule said 25 miles that day, so I figured I鈥檇 try to keep up for as much as I could. Over the miles, it came out that I鈥檇 never run a marathon before. 鈥淲ell, if you鈥檙e shooting to run 25 today, why not just do 26.2?鈥 he said, glancing first at his GPS watch and then sidelong to gauge my salt-encrusted expression. 鈥淚t鈥檚 just another 15 minutes.鈥

And that鈥攑lus a healthy dose of cajoling, a few miles of walking, and several bathroom breaks鈥攊s how I found myself dragging my feet across the trailhead parking spots with Brendan, his eyes glued to his watch, waiting for it to register the magic number 26.2. As I finally disintegrated into my car seat after a sopping hug and high-five, I wondered: Is this what dating an ultrarunner looks like?

(Brendan Leonard)

Brendan hasn鈥檛 always been an ultrarunner. In fact, I鈥檓 used to wearing the running shorts in the relationship. I鈥檓 one of those messed-up people who thinks I actually enjoy the activity. High school cross-country and track were both sweet solace for me through awkward phases; in college, I found a similar refuge in trail running. In my twenties, I entered half marathons once in a while, but I鈥檝e almost never run with a watch, and I rarely think about time or specific distances. I relish running as more of a spontaneous, natural expression of joy that happens to be good for me. Brendan? He鈥檚 different. He鈥檚 quick to say he doesn鈥檛 like running鈥攈e likes having run. So, when he registered for his first 50K after we鈥檇 been together for three years, I was a little surprised but supportive. When he finished his second 50-miler and started looking for 100-mile races, I began to anticipate some major lifestyle adjustments. Like getting schooled at the dinner table.

鈥淭wenty miles is automatic pizza,鈥 Brendan declared one evening, holding the door for me at our favorite deep-dish joint in Denver. Problem was, that day I didn鈥檛 run the 25 miles with him鈥擨 only ran five. 鈥淵ou got this,鈥 he said as my eating pace slowed, leaving several slices untouched. He and his running partner hadn鈥檛 stopped mowing into the pizza since it landed in front of them鈥攁nd they invited me to go out for pie afterward. I always thought I was a good eater, but there was no way I could hang with these guys anymore. An hour later, I dropped my spoon into the berry-pie tin in defeat, tempted to unbutton my jean shorts. At home, it was barely an hour before Brendan was rummaging in the fridge for another snack.

Just as I鈥檝e grown accustomed to hearing the phrase 鈥淚鈥檓 hungry鈥 200 times a day, I鈥檝e also started to get used to a regular symphony of groans, gasps, and what Brendan calls 鈥渙ld-man noises鈥 when he sits. And when he stands. And when he lies down. And especially when he dunks his feet into his weekly ice bath. I now refrain from panicking when I hear moans coming from behind the bathroom door.

Brendan and I are the kind of couple who generally leave the bathroom door closed, giving each other privacy. But applying before a run awkwardly straddles the line between public and private鈥攊t just somehow seems more intimate than applying sunscreen. Just envision all those private places that might chafe when you鈥檙e running five or more hours at a time. Not a very sexy thought. Casually strolling through the open bedroom door to talk about post-run plans, I found Brendan like a deer in headlights staring uncomfortably back at me, Body Glide in one hand, the waistband of his shorts bunched up in the other. His look warned, 鈥淵ou鈥檙e not going to be able to unsee what I鈥檓 about to do; you should probably turn around.鈥

Just as I鈥檝e grown accustomed to hearing the phrase 鈥淚鈥檓 hungry鈥 200 times a day, I鈥檝e also started to get used to a regular symphony of groans, gasps, and what Brendan calls 鈥渙ld-man noises鈥 when he sits. And when he stands. And when he lies down.

Even my idea of what a run looks like has changed. Brendan and I don鈥檛 always run together, but when we do, it鈥檚 rarely a simple out-and-back anymore. Usually not a clean loop or lollipop trail, either. One day, hunched over before we headed out, he turned the laptop around to show me how he managed to squeeze a few hundred more feet of elevation from our neighborhood streets on his last run. The map showed a row of teeth, the route鈥檚 red line zigzagging up and down each block for almost two miles.

I blame most of this on the new GPS watch that Brendan uses to log his miles and elevation. Counting miles so carefully is new to me, and I鈥檓 beginning to learn that a trail run is rarely over just because we鈥檙e back at the car. Odds are the watch still shows we need another half-mile. Or a third of a mile. Or a tenth of a mile. So I鈥檓 learning to swallow my laughter and my pride as we trot back and forth across a parking lot or jog in circles to reach the magic number on the training calendar.

In the end, all those parking-lot circles appear to be paying off. At the finish of the in Steamboat Springs last September, I stood with Brendan鈥檚 parents and friends as the sun set and the red digital numbers on the race clock morphed from one into the next. It grew close to a half-hour until the cutoff, and we started to worry. But as Brendan and his buddy Jayson shuffled around the corner and across the finish line, I couldn鈥檛 have been more proud. They might not have been the fastest, but they put in the work and accomplished what they set out to do.

And it wasn鈥檛 long after Brendan鈥檚 old-man noises from that race started to subside that we sat across the kitchen table from each other, staring into our laptops, and I quietly clicked 鈥渟ubmit鈥 to enter my own first 50K. Twenty miles equals automatic pizza, after all.

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Why Climbers Have the Head Game of Zen Monks /health/training-performance/rock-climbing-therapy-brain-injuries/ Thu, 20 Jul 2017 00:00:00 +0000 /uncategorized/rock-climbing-therapy-brain-injuries/ Why Climbers Have the Head Game of Zen Monks

Research already supports mindfulness exercises like yoga therapy for TBI recovery鈥攖hey help rewire the brain connections that a TBI essentially scrambles. And though there isn't hard data yet to support rock climbing as TBI therapy, it taps into a similarly focused state of mind.

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Why Climbers Have the Head Game of Zen Monks

Cars droned past on the highway behind as she lowered from an easy granite crack climb in Squamish, British Columbia鈥攖he exact kind of climb that sent her world into shambles six weeks before, when she鈥檇 fallen on lead, flipping upside down and smashing her head below her helmet.

That day, James left the crag with a fractured skull and hemorrhaging brain that interfered with her ability to concentrate and remember, to feel like herself. Today, she left with a glimpse of freedom and clarity she hadn鈥檛 experienced since the accident. Not everyone around her supported James climbing again so soon鈥攐r ever鈥攂ut she followed her intuition that climbing was exactly what her recovering brain needed. A growing number of specialists agree: from .

Research already supports mindfulness exercises like 鈥攖hey help rewire the brain connections that a TBI essentially scrambles. And though there isn鈥檛 hard data yet to support rock climbing as TBI therapy, it demands a similarly focused state of mind, says Eric Spier, a brain injury physician at Craig Hospital in Denver. 鈥淵ou鈥檙e not going to see that with a lot of other activities that don鈥檛 require that kind of attention and concentration,鈥 Spier says. 鈥淚t requires kinesthetic awareness of your body and movement.鈥 The hospital has added climbing to its recreational therapy program for TBI patients in the past two years. A number of other community programs across the country, like the 听and in Denver have done the same. But Spier says only a handful of therapy programs across the country鈥攊ncluding Craig鈥檚鈥攈ave begun to specifically study the TBI-climbing connection.

鈥淭he most reasonable way I believed to turn my brain on and get it moving was by the basic function of it telling my limbs where to go and initiate problem-solving.鈥

Millions of Americans suffer brain injuries each year, and the most severe can change a person鈥檚 sense of identity and self. But TBIs occur on a spectrum: Typical symptoms can include fatigue, memory loss, headaches, feelings of depression, and other emotional disturbances, while a severe TBI can cause more serious attention and memory issues, visual problems, speech and language disruption, and social-emotional struggles.

The potential of rock climbing as therapy lies in how it of recovery. The physical might seem obvious. 鈥淩ock climbing would offer many of the retraining components that are part of physical therapy, such as strength, coordination, and balance training,鈥 says Rolf B. Gainer, founder of the . It can also build self-confidence. 鈥淭hat鈥檚 especially important to people after a brain injury, when they can say, 鈥榊es, I did that.鈥欌

But the mental benefits of rock climbing go beyond a sense of accomplishment, says Spier. Climbing could, for example, help rebuild the damaged neural networks that allow for concentration and focus. 鈥淲hen those [networks] are disrupted, you鈥檙e more likely to have headaches and have disrupted sleep and stress and other medical problems that are downstream of that,鈥 he explains. Rock climbing, Spier says, could help patients work on those pathways in the brain that better allow them to maintain attention in resting states鈥攚hich could help , while improving a patient鈥檚 sleep-wake cycle and sense of well-being.

Craig DeMartino has seen this firsthand in his work with in Denver, climbing with veterans who鈥檝e suffered TBIs from exploding IED shockwaves. The program, which has been working with veterans for ten years, isn鈥檛 specifically TBI-focused, but DeMartino says he sees the connection. A longtime rock climber himself, he explains that getting on the wall quickly narrows focus to the three feet immediately in front of a person. 鈥淭hese guys don鈥檛 have that, ever,鈥 DeMartino says of the TBI victims. 鈥淭hey come back, and their brain is doing whatever it鈥檚 doing from the injury, and they don鈥檛 get that focus.鈥 For the clients he鈥檚 taken climbing as part of a partnership with Veterans Affairs, that newfound clarity is like a gift, he says. 鈥淲hen they come down, [the mental noise] comes back, obviously, right away. But they understand that by doing this on a repeated schedule, they鈥檙e actually going to be able to keep that noise quiet for a little bit.鈥

For some, like professional rock climber , climbing has helped alleviate the emotional side of symptoms. Harrington suffered several concussions throughout her childhood and early adulthood, many from freestyle-skiing crashes鈥攊ncluding one that left her unable to speak Spanish after previously being fluent. She fell into a depressive state. 鈥淚t had taken my personality away鈥擨 wasn鈥檛 me,鈥 Harrington says. 鈥淚 knew what I was expected to act like, so I鈥檇 put on a false persona. I didn鈥檛 feel anger or any emotion. I was like a zombie. And I had no focus, no inspiration, motivation.鈥 She had been seeing a therapist, trying to find out what from her past might have led to the depression.

It wasn鈥檛 until after another injury, at age 20, that Harrington saw a concussion specialist who helped her make the connection between her brain injuries and her emotional state. Beginning to understand her condition for what it was, she was slowly waking from a three-month depressive lull when she took her first trip to to learn to crack climb鈥攁nd began to glimpse her normal self again. The key? Harrington thinks it may have been the challenge of learning something new that put her in the moment but wasn鈥檛 physically risky. She was climbing on a top-rope, so she wouldn鈥檛 take big falls. 鈥淚t took the risk factor out of the equation, and I could just focus on learning new techniques, like solving a physical puzzle.鈥

Since then, Harrington has found that climbing helps clear her head and motivate her. She鈥檚 now a pro climber with a wide range of accomplishments, from big walls to 5.13 trad routes, and was the in Patagonia鈥檚 Fitz Roy massif in 2015.

Gainer points out that brain injury recovery doesn鈥檛 come in a quick fix. The process of relearning cognitive and physical skills after a TBI can take months, and patients need to continue skills maintenance over subsequent years. That can look different for each person depending on level of injury and will range from intense inpatient therapy to occasional recreational therapy like DeMartino鈥檚 climbing outings. The crucial thing, Gainer says, is to keep TBI patients inspired throughout their recovery, when it can be difficult and emotionally challenging. 鈥淚t鈥檚 important for the person to stay motivated and healthy in mind, body, and spirit to climb Mount Brain Injury,鈥 he says.

That鈥檚 a final potential strength of rock climbing: For a certain type of person, climbing can be motivating in a way other types of mindfulness exercises aren鈥檛. Gaby James, for example, started off with recommended brain exercises on her phone after her injury. They left her feeling frustrated. James was already uncharacteristically sedentary following her accident, and the brain apps felt even more mundane. They also gave her headaches, because her vision was impaired. 鈥淭he most reasonable way I believed to turn my brain on and get it moving was by the basic function of it telling my limbs where to go and initiate problem-solving,鈥 says James.

Climbing can work the same way as those mindfulness exercises, says Spier. It鈥檚 like practicing meditation鈥攅xcept you don鈥檛 have to sit still. The point is simply training the mind. Spier points to studies performed on meditating Buddhist and European monks: 鈥淭hey鈥檝e looked at functional MRIs of these monks versus controls, and [the monks] can maintain focus much better because they鈥檝e practiced that state of mindfulness.鈥 Turns out, when you鈥檝e got only a nubbin of rock to hold onto, you鈥檝e got a pretty direct path to just that.

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