On the Hunt for America鈥檚 Last Great Treasure
Millionaire Forrest Fenn launched a thousand trips when he filled a chest with gold, rubies, and diamonds, and hid it somewhere north of Santa Fe. If one man is going to find it, by god, it鈥檚 an ex-cop from Seattle named Darrell Seyler.
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If not for the treasure, it seems unlikely that Forrest Fenn and Darrell Seyler would ever have crossed paths. Fenn is an 85-year-old retired art dealer from Santa Fe; Darrell is a 50-year-old former cop living in Seattle. Fenn grew up exploring Yellowstone National Park; Darrell bounced in and out of foster homes. After a bad tour in Vietnam, Fenn wandered the plateaus and canyons of the desert Southwest; after a divorce, Darrell spent a few unfortunate months on the Dallas club scene鈥攇low sticks, bass drops, put your hands in the air.
Yet the two are inextricably linked by an incredible fact: for the past three years, Darrell has been searching the Rocky Mountains for a chest filled with an estimated million dollars in gold, and Fenn knows where it is. In fact, he put it there.

Fenn has spent his life amassing treasure. As a kid growing up in the 1930s in Temple, Texas, halfway between Dallas and San Antonio, he hunted for arrowheads with his father; he found his first one while walking a creekbed on a drizzly Sunday afternoon. Every summer, his family drove their 1936 Chevy to Yellowstone National Park, where Fenn pulled trout from the streams and scoured the riverbanks looking for agates. By age 13, he was a professional fishing guide in the area. At 16, he read Osborne Russell鈥檚 鈥攁bout the mountain man鈥檚 explorations and encounters with Native Americans in the Yellowstone Valley鈥攁nd set out with a friend to wander the same territory.
鈥淭he mountains continue to beckon me,鈥 Fenn wrote in his 2010 memoir, . 鈥淭hey always will.鈥
In 1950, at age 20, he left the mountains to join the Air Force, eventually flying fighter jets in Vietnam. He was shot down twice, the second time spending a night alone in the jungle hiding from Pathet Lao forces before being rescued.
He was discharged in 1970 and later moved to Santa Fe to start an art gallery, selling paintings, sculptures, and artifacts he鈥檇 traded for or found throughout the Four Corners region. His collection, he wrote, 鈥済rew to excessive proportions.鈥

When I met Fenn at his home last September, a museum鈥檚 worth of mementos adorned his study: ten Native American headdresses, a wall of moccasins, proof sheets for A Connecticut Yankee in King Arthur鈥檚 Court full of Mark Twain鈥檚 own pencil markings. Some are worth a lot of money, others are valuable only for the memories they represent.
鈥淭here鈥檚 an old saying: 鈥業 never knew it was the chase I sought and not the quarry,鈥 鈥 Fenn says. 鈥淚sn鈥檛 that a nice little phrase?鈥
In 1987, Fenn鈥檚 father took enough sleeping pills to end a protracted fight with pancreatic cancer. The next year, Fenn was diagnosed with kidney cancer and given a 20 percent chance of surviving three years. He decided he鈥檇 go out with a flourish of minor mystery. He鈥檇 fill a ten-by-ten-by-five-inch bronze box full of gold coins and jewels, carry it to a final resting place, set it down, and wait to die. The only way to find him鈥攁nd the treasure鈥攚ould be to follow the clues he鈥檇 leave behind in a poem.
Everything was going according to plan鈥攈e鈥檇 written the poem and filled the chest with 42 pounds of sapphires, rubies, gold coins, ancient jade carvings, a pre-Columbian gold frog, and a turquoise bracelet鈥攗ntil the cancer went into remission. Fenn put his plan on hold until 2010, when he turned 80 and decided to start it up again. So, like the scores of outlaws and miners whose legends still have shovel-wielding optimists wandering the American West, he stashed his prize. Then he printed the poem in his memoir and waited for the story to spread. There was only one small twist. This time he wouldn鈥檛 die next to his treasure; he鈥檇 stick around to watch the pursuit.

It鈥檚 Thanksgiving weekend, and Darrell and I are speeding east from Seattle toward Wyoming on I-90. When I stopped by his place for the first time, two weeks ago, Darrell said point-blank that he knew where it was. An hour later we were scheming how to get it.
Darrell has soft eyes, angular good looks, and an openhanded demeanor that puts people at ease. Joining us are Harry Greer and George Boyd, friends of Darrell鈥檚 who he enlisted to help with the driving. Greer is a craggy-faced ex-con struggling to turn his life around. (鈥淭hey put a camera on everything these days,鈥 he says.) Boyd has a tendency to wrap conversations back around to how the planets are gods conspiring to provide for him, personally. At least I think that鈥檚 what he means. Plan a trip for Thanksgiving and these are the guys who can come along, Darrell says later with a shrug.
Like a lot of searchers, Darrell learned of the Fenn treasure while perusing the Internet on a work break. After a bit of research, he decided that he knew鈥攁bsolutely knew鈥攚here it was: a certain grove of aspen trees in Yellowstone National Park. He had found it on Google Earth, and it lined up with some of Fenn鈥檚 clues. He went to retrieve the treasure in January 2013 and discovered that, like every other searcher thus far, he was wrong.
罢丑别听蝉别别办别谤蝉:聽Darrell isn鈥檛 the only hunter to become obsessed.
But hunting for treasure was like living out his childhood dreams; he鈥檇 had Raiders of the Lost Ark on repeat as a kid. He spent most of 2013 dissecting Fenn鈥檚 clues聽and made the 13-hour drive to Yellowstone 17 times between January 2013 and May 2014.
That鈥檚 a lot of trips, but Darrell is hardly unique. Fenn estimates that at least 30,000 people have looked for the chest, and searchers range from weekend enthusiasts to semiprofessional hunters to unrepentant fanatics. In 2013 in Tererro, New Mexico, a man was charged with damaging a cultural artifact for digging beneath the white cross of a roadside memorial. Another man dug up graves, even though Fenn has been very careful never to say that he buried the treasure鈥攊t鈥檚 鈥渉idden.鈥 A woman in Chicago has spent $100,000 on searches she can鈥檛 afford. On three separate occasions, hunters have shown up at Fenn鈥檚 house acting different brands of crazy, and he has called the police.
鈥淚t鈥檚 a monster that I created with my story,鈥 Fenn told me.

When I first reached out to Darrell after reading about his hunt online, I wasn鈥檛 sure how strong a grip the treasure had on him. But when I drove up from my home in Portland to meet him in Seattle, I found him calm, funny, and willing to bet me all the meals on the drive home that his 鈥渟olve,鈥 as searchers call it, was correct.
The inside of his place was standard-issue suburban decor: infomercial workout gear on door frames, pinecone-shaped air fresheners, and those vertical blinds that clack together when the heat turns on. He opened his laptop and showed me a picture he took from the bottom of a 50-foot cliff. He was looking at this photo last night and realized that the chest鈥攔ight there, can you believe it?鈥攚as tucked into the rocks halfway up. It鈥檚 a spot he鈥檇 searched previously, just not the cliff. He talked me through the picture.
鈥淲hat I thought was, this is the lid, that鈥檚 the top, and that鈥檚 the latch,鈥 he said. 鈥淐an you see that?鈥
鈥淲别濒濒鈥︹赌
鈥淚t鈥檚 a little difficult at first, I know. How about now?鈥
He zoomed in so close that all I could see were a bunch of fuzzy squares.
鈥淚t鈥檚 pretty pixelated,鈥 I said.
But then he talked me through his solution to the first three clues in Fenn鈥檚 poem. I thought, Damn, that鈥檚 a good solve. Then he talked me through the rest of his evidence and I thought, Holy shit!
Two weeks later, here we are, Greer driving, Boyd riding shotgun, Darrell giving me another tour of the pixelated photographs.
Our plan is to drive 12 hours through the night, get the treasure, and drive right back. We doze in shifts, rotating drivers every two hours. Around 3 A.M., we stop at a Walmart to pick up rope, gloves, and binoculars. The clerk gives us a funny look when we check out鈥攚e鈥檙e a few full-face stocking caps away from a burglary kit. We also buy snacks and some Montana鈥檚 Treasure bottled water. Somehow we forget the binoculars.
Back on the road, the late-November sunrise reveals snow like a hasty coat of primer on the mountains, blond grass showing through. But it鈥檚 warmish when Darrell and I don snowshoes and set out to a location I鈥檝e sworn not to reveal. Boyd and Greer, lacking snow gear, stay behind.
I become something of a guide on the three-mile hike, advising Darrell on how to navigate the terrain and lending him some snow pants. When he mistakes a zippered vent for a pocket and loses his phone, timekeeping duties fall to me as well.
Approaching the top of the 50-foot cliff, Darrell says we鈥檒l tie off a rope so he can climb down to the spot. He didn鈥檛 bring a climbing harness, however, just a length of fraying cord and the $15 Walmart rope. After watching Darrell tie a knot, I go over and replace it with a real one.
鈥淟ook at you, Boy Scout,鈥 he says.
Fenn has repeatedly said that the treasure is 鈥渘ot in a dangerous place.鈥 He hid the chest when he was 80 years old and tells searchers not to look anywhere he couldn鈥檛 have gone.

But Fenn is also no ordinary octogenarian, Darrell argues. In fact, it would be exactly like him to let people assume he couldn鈥檛 rappel down a cliff. Also, Fenn made his money selling native artifacts from the Southwest. Where did Southwestern cultures hide valuables? On cliffs.
So down Darrell climbs, to the edge of where things turn vertical. But for all his enthusiasm, Darrell is afraid of heights, and that fear speaks to him on a deeper level than treasure. He decides he wants a better rope, better footing. He wants to survey the cliff from down below so he knows where he鈥檚 going. The sun is getting low. Let鈥檚 come back tomorrow, he says.
We scramble down a much easier route to the bottom. This is the same vantage point from which Darrell鈥檚 laptop photo was taken, but to me it just looks like rock.
Beside me, Darrell is having the opposite reaction.
鈥淥h, oh, oh!鈥 he says. 鈥淭here it is! I can see it! I can see the brackets he used to keep it in place. He covered it in netting!鈥
If hunting treasure is a drug, this is the high. Darrell is blissed-out and slack-jawed, tripping over his snowshoes and catching himself without taking his eyes off the cliff.
鈥淲here?鈥 I ask.
鈥淭here, there! See the thing that looks like a wheel? Right there! That鈥檚 a metal bracket.鈥
鈥淒arrell, that鈥檚 rock.鈥
We go on like this for a while, debating something 30 feet in front of us like we debated his pixelated photos. If only we鈥檇 remembered the binoculars, Darrell says, I鈥檇 be able to see what he鈥檚 seeing. But we鈥檙e past our turnaround time, so he has me take some pictures with my phone, we walk back to the car, and we drive an hour to a Super 8 motel.
Darrell is adamant throughout the drive that what he saw is the treasure. He鈥檚 zooming in on my phone, explaining how the chest is on a ledge that we couldn鈥檛 see looking up from below. But, he says, you can see a fuzzy image of it projected onto the rock above the ledge. Cameras will do that. The light bends. You can only see it with a camera.
鈥淒arrell, when I look at these pictures and I can鈥檛 see what you鈥檙e seeing, do I sound crazy to you?鈥 I ask.
鈥淣o,鈥 he says. 鈥淎nd I don鈥檛 think I sound crazy, either.鈥

Like something out of an airport mystery novel, Fenn鈥檚 poem is a rhyming literary treasure map: six stanzas, nine sequential clues, all as vague as a jigsaw puzzle strewn across the table. The key to solving it, most searchers agree, is figuring out the line 鈥淏egin it where warm waters halt.鈥 From there you鈥檙e looking for a 鈥渃anyon down,鈥 and then some sort of 鈥渉ome of Brown.鈥 Find all three in succession and maybe you鈥檙e in business. 国产吃瓜黑料 of that, there鈥檚 hardly a consensus as to which lines are real clues.
Subsequent information from Fenn has narrowed the search area to elevations between 5,000 and 10,200 feet in Montana, Wyoming, Colorado, and anywhere north of Santa Fe in New Mexico, but those states are chock-full of hot springs, warmish lakes, warm-water reservoirs, canyons, brown trout, brown bears, and ranches and mountains named for one Brown or another, so it鈥檚 hard to get much more zeroed-in than that.
Dal Neitzel, a searcher from Lummi Island, Washington, who ,聽has gone looking for it more than 50 times. A longtime underwater treasure hunter, Neitzel first heard of Fenn while searching for a sunken ship in Uruguay with Forrest鈥檚 nephew, Crayton Fenn, who told story after story about his madcap uncle.
A few years later, back on dry land, Neitzel Googled Forrest to see what he was up to. Top results: hiding treasure and writing poetry.
鈥淚 thought, This is going to be simple!鈥 Neitzel said. 鈥淚鈥檝e found lots of stuff with no directions. If this guy is going to give me some, this will be easy.鈥
That was five years ago.

Fenn once wrote that most searchers overcomplicate the clues, resting their solve on obscure knowledge or hidden codes鈥攂ending the poem to fit their solution rather than the other way around.
Despite Fenn鈥檚 insistence that searchers focus on the text, nothing seems off-limits. There are as many solutions to the poem as there are nooks and crannies in the Rocky Mountains. For example, if you start at Flaming Gorge Reservoir in Wyoming (where warm waters halt) and continue downstream 15 miles (too far to walk), you come to a park named for French Canadian fur trapper Baptiste Brown (home of Brown). Follow the river and you come to Fort Misery, where pioneer Joseph Meek hid out among notorious outlaws (no place for the meek). The geography, the trappers, and the wordplay all read like classic Fenn. But: no treasure.
Darrell鈥檚 current solution doesn鈥檛 rely on obscure facts, and it dovetails in a really elegant way with some things Fenn has said about the hunt. Go online and you鈥檒l find folks parsing Fenn鈥檚 every word for hidden meaning and contradictions. The level of scrutiny is formidable鈥攕ome searchers have gone so far as to compile all of Fenn鈥檚 published spelling errors looking for patterns鈥攂ut it鈥檚 also a reminder of just how much collective brainpower is going into solving this thing.
In other words, Fenn鈥檚 poem isn鈥檛 just a riddle. It鈥檚 also a race.

The next morning, our plan is the same. Hike in, get the treasure, and cannonball home. Except this time Harry Greer comes with us. He鈥檚 never been snowshoeing before, and he鈥檚 been commenting the whole trip about how amazing the landscape is. He also wants to earn the money Darrell promised him, so he volunteers to be the one who rappels down the cliff. I offer to make him a cheap harness, but no one wants to stop to buy the webbing we鈥檇 need. Instead, when we get to the spot, Greer wraps the rope around his chest four times and edges toward the cliff. If all goes well, he鈥檚 thinking, the friction will feed the rope out slowly as he drops to the bottom.
鈥淎re you comfortable with this?鈥 I ask.
鈥淣o,鈥 he says, dropping over the ledge. 鈥淏ut I鈥檝e got a lot of bills to pay.鈥
Of course, the rope-corset crushes his chest immediately. As he continues to lower himself, I track his progress via grunts of pain echoing through the wood.
Darrell is below, dodging falling rocks and excitedly guiding him to the treasure.
鈥淐heck up there, yeah, to the left, on that ledge. OK, yeah, hold on. You can take a minute,鈥 says Darrell.
鈥淚t鈥檚 not here, boss.鈥
鈥淐heck on that ledge. Over there. Can you see it? Dig around a little bit. It鈥檚 there.鈥
Greer gets a knife out and scrapes it along every flat surface. He looks down at Darrell, who is waiting like a puppy for a treat, and then searches everything again. 鈥淣othing but rock. I鈥檓 sorry.鈥
This does not sit well with Darrell; for him, this treasure isn鈥檛 just treasure. It鈥檚 redemption.
Darrell grew up outside Seattle, where his drug-addicted mom occasionally worked as a prostitute. He was, he says, 鈥渢he result of a John in an alley somewhere.鈥 The only black kid in his white mother鈥檚 family, he had seven stepfathers over the years. None liked him much.

Very early he decided he would become a cop鈥攖he guy coming to the rescue鈥攁nd that goal kept him improbably devoted to the straight and narrow. In 1991, after serving three years in the Army鈥檚 military police, Darrell joined the King County sheriff鈥檚 office. 鈥淓very day was my birthday,鈥 he said, describing the job and its steady paycheck.
Then, in 1997, Darrell was pursuing a suspect on foot and slashed the guy鈥檚 car tires so that he couldn鈥檛 circle back and drive off. But the car was registered to someone else, they filed a complaint, and the department let him go. The fuck-up cost him a job he loved; the stress cost him his marriage.
When his ex-wife started appearing on Seattle billboards鈥攕he鈥檇 won a bikini contest鈥攈e fled to Dallas, partied his divorce away, and started dating a Dallas Cowboys cheerleader. But he landed back in Seattle a few years later when he got tired of the lifestyle. He worked for a couple of mortgage companies, then took a desk job recruiting engineers for B/E Aerospace in 2011. He was good at it, and his life stabilized鈥攗ntil the treasure popped up on his computer screen.
鈥淚 would leave on a Friday, right after work, have my vehicle packed and ready to go, and I鈥檇 get back from Yellowstone, without any sleep the entire weekend, at 8 A.M. on Monday,鈥 he said.
Soon that schedule encroached on his job performance. A couple of times he didn鈥檛 show up on Monday until noon and got written up. His friends told him to quit the hunt.
It all came to a head in April 2014, when he drove to Yellowstone with a friend and flipped his raft trying to cross the Lamar River. He was washed 1.5 miles downstream, nearly drowned, and spent a 26-degree night soaking wet on the river鈥檚 snowy banks before search and rescue got there. But then, instead of waiting to see which of the 16 misdemeanors and park violations local prosecutors were going to pursue, Darrell drove back to Yellowstone in May, crossed the Lamar on foot, lost track of time, spent another night on the riverbank, and was again picked up by search and rescue.
Things spiraled quickly after that. The park charged him with reckless endangerment, illegal camping, and possession of a metal detector in the backcountry. He spent six days in the Bighorn County Jail in Montana, and in a plea agreement he was ordered to pay a $6,000 fine in monthly installments. He lost his job, got kicked out of his apartment, and spent two months living in his car. Eventually, he fell behind on the fine payments, and a warrant was issued for his arrest. All the while, he kept hunting for the treasure on McDonald鈥檚 Wi-Fi.
Fenn made his money selling native artifacts from the Southwest. Where did Southwestern cultures hide valuables? On cliffs.
So, more than money, this treasure is a culminating triumph, a chance for Darrell to become the man he once was. And when it鈥檚 not here, where he was absolutely sure it would be鈥攚here he had seen it in a photo!鈥擠arrell loses it. He kicks a tree in anger, doubles over, and clutches his head. When Greer comes down, Darrell takes the rope to check the spot himself. We wait at the bottom, but after 15 minutes there鈥檚 no sign of him, and I go looking. Eventually, I find him slumped against a rock, the rope tangled in his snowshoes, crying.
This was his last idea. He鈥檚 running out of money.
鈥淚s this the end?鈥 I ask.
鈥淵eah,鈥 he says. 鈥淥f a lot of things.鈥

It鈥檚 tempting sometimes to think that there is no treasure; that a puckish old man is having a laugh at everyone鈥檚 expense. Even veteran searchers say they sometimes waver on that point.
But Fenn is more interested in experience than irony. He once published his phone number in a newspaper telling people to call and wish his wife happy birthday. Besides, his family鈥檚 inheritances are set, and he says failure is dying with more than $50 in your bank account.
Some speculate that Fenn designed this whole thing to get people digging around on federal lands as a kind of middle finger to government agencies that have long thought he鈥檇 bought and sold illegally obtained relics. In 2009, the Bureau of Land Management searched his house in a sting targeting the Native American artifacts trade in the Four Corners region, but the U.S. Attorney agreed to drop the case if Fenn would return a kachina-dance mask, a basket, and a sun-dance skull, and agree not to sue them for falsifying the warrant.
Weigh out the factors for and against the treasure鈥檚 existence and you鈥檙e left with the question: Would Fenn really make this whole thing up?

The best place to get a sense of Fenn鈥檚 personality is in , a section of Dal Neitzel鈥檚 site where Fenn blogs regularly. The scrapbook mostly consists of Fenn鈥檚 thoughts and stories, but occasionally it offers real insights and even outright hints. addresses the clue 鈥渨here warm waters halt,鈥 which many had thought referred to warm water collecting in a reservoir, like at Flaming Gorge in Wyoming.
鈥淚 have discussed around that subject with several people in the last few days and am concerned that not all searchers are aware of what has been said,鈥 he wrote. 鈥淪o to level the playing field to give everyone an equal chance I will say now that WWWH [where warm waters halt] is not related to any dam.鈥
To dedicated searchers, this kind of solid fact slakes a terrible thirst. While there are other blogs, like and , Forrest鈥檚 Scrapbook is everyone鈥檚 favorite watering hole. It gets roughly 8,000 visitors a day, but only a hundred or so searchers comment regularly鈥攊t鈥檚 where Darrell and Neitzel and others congregate and converse. Though it鈥檚 a supportive group, not everyone is completely forthcoming.
鈥淚 don鈥檛 think there鈥檚 a lot of malicious misinformation,鈥 Neitzel told me about the conversations. 鈥淏ut I do think there鈥檚 some redirection.鈥 If it seems like someone鈥檚 getting close, he says, someone else might volunteer a thought just to throw the other hunter off the trail.
In June 2014鈥攁 month after his arrest in Yellowstone鈥擠arrell e-mailed a group of five sisters from Florida and Georgia who had been and were active on the blog. One of them鈥擬elani Ivey鈥攕hared Darrell鈥檚 dedication to the hunt, and the two soon started e-mailing and talking on the phone, feeding each other鈥檚 enthusiasm.
鈥淚t鈥檚 like a black hole,鈥 says Ivey, 43, who lives in Panama City, Florida. 鈥淭he more you read, the more you want. You never stop.鈥
When Ivey鈥檚 sisters took her on her first hunt, also in Yellowstone, a moose charged them. That bit of adventure hooked her. 鈥淚t was the time of my life,鈥 she said. 鈥淔rom there forward, I haven鈥檛 put it out of my mind.鈥
She and Darrell could spend hours on the phone dissecting clues without noticing the time. It was only looking back that she started to see pieces of her life going missing.
鈥淚 loved to hike,鈥 Ivey said. 鈥淎fter searching I thought, Great, now I鈥檓 not even going to enjoy a hike, because I don鈥檛 have a treasure to look for.鈥
She tries to give up the hunt every so often but always gets pulled back in by her sisters or Darrell or a new idea.
鈥淵ou want to live in that fantasy world,鈥 she said. 鈥淵ou want to believe that there鈥檚 a treasure out there that鈥檚 going to solve all your problems.鈥
For Darrell, Ivey is a crucial support system. She understands the pull, what he鈥檚 going through, the God-that鈥檚-good excitement of solving a clue. Which is to say that she鈥檚 not very helpful when it comes time to quit.

I didn鈥檛 expect to hear from Darrell for a while after our unsuccessful hunt. On the drive home, he told me that I could start searching his spot if I wanted. He was done: no more blog, no more poem.
Then, one morning a few weeks later, I get several e-mails in a row, then a text to let me know that he sent an e-mail. A few hours later he calls. He鈥檚 back on the hunt.
We start planning a trip to the very same cliff for the day after Christmas, just the two of us. Darrell will be done with a contract job by then鈥攈e has yet to find full-time work, but he鈥檚 making do鈥攁nd he wants to search it himself, because Greer didn鈥檛 really know what he was looking for and the climbing rope had treated him like a spent tube of toothpaste. Bronze develops a green patina when exposed to the elements, Darrell says. Maybe Greer missed it. It鈥檚 worth going back with real climbing gear.
His e-mails contain photos of the cliff with circles highlighting some faint mark or symbol. He鈥檚 seeing images in the rock鈥攁 letter F, some sort of fish, faint white numbers, maybe petroglyphs Fenn left behind鈥攁nd he wants to know if I can see them, too.
Sometimes I can, but it鈥檚 like seeing things in clouds.
When Darrell sends the photos to Ivey, she backs him completely and tells him to get on the road. When he sends them to Neitzel, he offers to go take a look if Darrell will divulge his secret spot. And when he sends them to Fenn, the reply sends Darrell into a frenzy.

Well, Fenn doesn鈥檛 respond directly to Darrell; but he does post on Dal Neitzel鈥檚 site the very next day. It鈥檚 Scrapbook , posted December 15, 2014, and consists of pictures of the marble in Fenn鈥檚 shower. Each photo caption explains something he sees in the swirl of rock. There鈥檚 a cowgirl, a dog, some Gollum-looking critter.
To most, it鈥檚 a cheeky glimpse behind the curtain鈥攁 little weird, even for Fenn, but not unheard of. To Darrell, it鈥檚 confirmation.
So: same drive, same Walmart, same snacks, same Montana鈥檚 Treasure bottled water, same failure to get binoculars when the cashier informs Darrell that the charge would overdraft his account. He has less than $50 in it.
It鈥檚 six below zero when we get to the spot, and a breath of wind drops it another few degrees. Clouds drift by low and thick; the sun is just a moldy peach on the horizon.
It takes forever to get into our climbing harnesses and set up the rope I brought. When we鈥檙e finally ready, Darrell doesn鈥檛 trust the knots. He clambers down past the canyon edge, then freaks out, grabs the rock, and climbs back up the cliff, wrapping the rope around his arm as he goes.
I offer to rappel down first to show him it鈥檚 safe. I can even search the cliff if he wants.
鈥淵ou would do that?鈥 he asks.
I do that. Darrell tells me where to go, and I scramble around on the rope and look. No treasure.
When I get to the bottom, Darrell is bent over in pain. His toes were frostbitten years ago during basic training, and when they get cold it鈥檚 unbearable. We duck out of the wind to warm up, and he tries to rub some life back into them. It鈥檚 like listening to someone stub his toe for 15 minutes. He鈥檚 only wearing one pair of cotton socks, and his boots are too tight. He has no feeling in one foot. We鈥檙e going to have to come back tomorrow.
Same Super 8 motel. Darrell rolls onto the bed still wearing his snow pants and jacket, and he wraps himself up in the bedspread with both arms. He says he鈥檚 fine, he鈥檚 not sinking into one of his post-hunt depressions, but he doesn鈥檛 want to talk, just watch TV. Indiana Jones is on, but it鈥檚 the new, crappy one with Shia LaBeouf. Soon Darrell falls asleep, still in his clothes.
The next morning, I get up at 7 A.M. and sort wet gear from dry, but Darrell hits snooze a couple of times. He finally goes down to the hotel lobby for breakfast, but then collapses back onto the bed.
It鈥檚 like he鈥檚 lost a part of his mind, he says. He鈥檚 not sure if he鈥檚 acting rationally or logically anymore. He might want to quit鈥攔eally quit鈥攖he hunt.
鈥淲here has it gotten me?鈥 he says. 鈥淚鈥檓 in a motel room I can鈥檛 afford, and I look like a crazy person seeing things in walls that aren鈥檛 there.鈥
He says he wants to go back to the spot to rappel down that cliff, but more to prove that he can do it than to find the treasure. But can he even trust that feeling? Should he make sure he didn鈥檛 miss anything? Will that quell his desire to come back later? What will he do with himself if he鈥檚 not out searching? This has been his life for two years. He鈥檚 facing away from me, talking into his hands, curling into a ball. Withering.
When you鈥檙e as deep into this thing as Darrell is, the only way to know you鈥檙e on the right track is to find the chest; there鈥檚 no incremental success. You鈥檙e either all-in or you quit. But he can鈥檛 quit. He must be close.
After all, why did Forrest post pictures of his bathroom and write about the things he was seeing in the marble? Where do warm waters halt? Who is Brown?
Snow whips past the window in a silent blur. Darrell sits on the edge of the bed, searching for himself.
Peter Frick-Wright lives in Portland, Oregon. This is his first feature for 国产吃瓜黑料.