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"Meru is the culmination of all I've done and all I've wanted to do," Anker says. (Marc Hom)

How Conrad Anker Risked It All to Chase a Dream

After winning the coveted audience award at Sundance, the documentary 'Meru' is getting a nationwide theatrical release next month. How did a climbing movie break through with mainstream audiences? Credit the incredible story at its center: a tale of tragedy, family, friendship, risk, and the redemptive power of suffering.

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(Photo: Marc Hom)

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As a genre, climbing 铿乴ms are a risky enterprise, pocked with philosophical crevasses, hackneyed themes, and obvious pitfalls: you need to get outside your comfort zone; it isn鈥檛 so much the fear of dying but of not actually living; it鈥檚 the journey not the destination. Climbers are both the originators and eternal standard bearers of the empty truism, beginning with Everest pioneer George Mallory鈥檚 1924 catchphrase 鈥淏ecause it鈥檚 there.鈥澛

, the new climbing documentary that will see wide theatrical release in August, avoids these tired expressions but manages to evoke the feelings that inspire them. The film, codirected by the husband and wife team of climber Jimmy Chin and filmmaker (), follows Chin and his North Face鈥搒ponsored teammates and as they try鈥攐n two expeditions, in 2008 and 2011鈥攖o ascend 21,000-foot Meru Central via its Shark鈥檚 Fin feature, a 1,500-foot blade of granite in India鈥檚 Garhwal Himalaya range. At the time, the route was widely believed to be unclimbable, and the idea that a movie about attempting it could be anything more than a solid entry on the adventure-film circuit was just an afterthought. In fact, Chin had an earlier version of Meru rejected outright by Sundance in 2011. The following year he met Vasarhelyi, who helped him fully realize his vision for a story of Meru that was actually the story of Conrad Anker.

Meru Central; the Shark's Fin looms in the center, shrouded in clouds.
Meru Central; the Shark's Fin looms in the center, shrouded in clouds. (Jimmy Chin)

Then, when Meru won the audience award at its Sundance premiere in January鈥攁n honor that typically presages Oscar nominations, as was the case with 2013鈥檚 鈥擟hin realized that he鈥檇 created more than a climbing film. 鈥淚 finally said what I鈥檝e been trying to say for so long,鈥 says Chin of the effort. It鈥檚 a 90-minute explanation of why he and his friends risk so much, and it succeeds not because the climbing is crazy鈥攖hough it is鈥攂ut because it鈥檚 a well-told coming of age for three mountain-obsessed men who refuse to give up on their dream despite the demands of adulthood. Rather than try to boil down the feeling into something pithy, the film is an incremental meditation.聽

鈥淢eru is the culmination of all I鈥檝e done and all I鈥檝e wanted to do,鈥 says Anker in one of the opening interviews. Anker鈥檚 wildly successful and tragic climbing life sits at the center of the movie. Meru tells the story of all three men but connects them with Anker鈥檚 personal history: of losing his climbing partner Alex Lowe in a Himalayan avalanche in 1999 and then marrying Lowe鈥檚 widow and adopting his three children. Anker鈥檚 first mentor, the late Terrence 鈥淢ugs鈥 Stump, tried the climb in 1988 and failed. Since then, at least three other top alpinists have thrown themselves at the mountain. Stump died while guiding clients on Denali in 1992, and Anker had it in his head to pick up where his friend left off. He tried it for the first time in 2003 with Americans Doug Chabot and Bruce Miller.

The movie opens with a grim-looking scene of a snowbound portaledge鈥攁 custom-made tent that dangles from the side of the mountain like the high-altitude love child of a Murphy bed and a prison cell. It was 2008, the team鈥檚 first attempt on the mountain. They鈥檇 brought a week鈥檚 worth of food but ended up spending 19 days on the wall, seeing only what Anker called 鈥渢he inside of a Ping-Pong ball.鈥澛

Anker on Meru in 2008, during his second of three attempts.
Anker on Meru in 2008, during his second of three attempts. (Jimmy Chin)

Because the satellite phone in the haul bag wasn鈥檛 functioning, the men had forced their loved ones back home to simply wait and hope that they had hit some nonfatal snag that kept them out later than expected. But despite such a long effort, they came up just short of the summit before turning back. Part of being a top alpinist is understanding how far you can push it and still make it home, explains writer Jon Krakauer, whose interviews throughout the film help translate the climbing world into plain English.

鈥淪ome of the best climbers have tried and failed on this route,鈥 he explains. 鈥淵ou can鈥檛 just be a good ice climber. You can鈥檛 just be good at altitude. You can鈥檛 just be a good rock climber. You鈥檝e gotta be able to do ice climbing, mixed climbing, and you鈥檝e got to be able to do big-wall climbing at 20,000 feet. It鈥檚 all that stuff wrapped in one package that鈥檚 defeated so many good climbers and will probably defeat you and maybe will defeat everybody for all time. That, to a certain kind of mindset, is an irresistible appeal.鈥

But even with the top so close, the men called it quits: 鈥淗undred meters short of the summit,鈥 says Chin to Ozturk鈥檚 camera on the mountain. 鈥淲e just don鈥檛 have the safety margin to make it.鈥澛

Part of the difficulty of making a movie like Meru attractive to mainstream audiences is persuading people that the mountain is as worthy of their interest as Everest and K2. The world of climbing films breaks pretty cleanly around this distinction. There are the big-peak climbs in service of a film production鈥攖hink Everest in Imax, Vertical Limit, Discovery Channel鈥檚 Everest: Beyond the Limit. They make money. Sometimes a lot of money. And then there are the soulful documentaries about hardmen on obscure mountains that excite the climbing world but bankrupt their directors.

Meru might be the first film since 鈥攖he horrifying documentary chronicling Joe Simpson鈥檚 survival story, in which Simon Yates has no choice but to cut the rope as a battered Simpson dangles from it鈥攖hat bridges those worlds.聽

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If life on the mountain seems difficult for the three main characters in Meru, it鈥檚 nothing compared with their near misses back in the world. For Anker, the road from dirtbag to professional climber to mentor has been a long one.聽

In May of 1999, working as part of a seven-man research expedition trying to find out what became of the 1924 British Mount Everest expedition鈥檚 summit party, Anker discovered the body of George Mallory, who had been missing high on the mountain鈥檚 north slopes since he and partner Sandy Irvine disappeared there 75 years earlier. It was a career high point that was followed only months later by Anker鈥檚 nadir. That October, Anker joined an expedition led by his regular climbing partner and fellow North Face ambassador Alex Lowe to try and make the first American ski descent of an 8,000-meter peak: Tibet鈥檚 26,335-foot Shishapangma. During an early reconnaissance hike out of base camp, an avalanche began high above the team and swept down on them. 鈥淭he compression of time one experiences when you鈥檙e a small person underneath this huge avalanche is amazing,鈥 Anker later wrote.聽

Lowe and Aspen-based cameraman Dave Bridges were killed and never found. Anker, who ran in a different direction and lay down before the blast hit, survived with minor injuries. In their shared grief, Anker and Lowe鈥檚 widow, Jennifer, fell in love, got married in 2001, and raised the three Lowe boys, Max, Sam, and Isaac, all while Anker continued to pursue a dangerous career as one of the world鈥檚 top alpinists. In a 2001 profile in 国产吃瓜黑料, Anker acknowledged the difficult position he found himself in, still wanting to push his luck while now being responsible for four other people. 鈥淚鈥檝e gotta keep my ass really safe,鈥 he told writer Daniel Duane.聽

From left: Anker, Chin, and Ozturk resting before their final summit push in 2011.
From left: Anker, Chin, and Ozturk resting before their final summit push in 2011. (Jimmy Chin)

Meanwhile, Chin and Ozturk each had near death experiences in the lull between the 2008 Meru expedition and the team鈥檚 return in 2011. In March of 2011, Chin, who is among a handful of people to have skied from the summit of Everest, invited Ozturk on a shoot in the Jackson Hole, Wyoming, backcountry with professional snowboarders Jeremy Jones and . Ozturk isn鈥檛 much of a skier. During the descent toward the filming location, Ozturk hooked an edge and , landing on his head. He was airlifted to Idaho Falls with a fractured skull and the same vertebral artery rupture that would kill halfpipe ski star and Olympic hopeful Sarah Burke in 2012. Just four days later, Chin, who returned to the film project, was that swept him a thousand feet downslope but somehow left him only half-buried. After Ozturk鈥檚 injury, Chin had bought his first ski helmet, which may have saved his life.聽

That these three鈥攐ne of them only five months out from a life-threatening injury鈥攚ould go back to Meru that fall speaks to a kind of obsession bordering on the pathological. But it鈥檚 one that Meru manages to explain, even if the movie makes you want to shout at the screen as if the three men are coeds reentering the haunted house they鈥檝e just escaped from.聽


Even now, 16 years after Lowe鈥檚 death on Shishapangma, Anker鈥檚 late partner still appears to him in dreams. In February, after Meru鈥檚 Sundance premier, Anker was on a photo-shoot expedition in Nepal鈥檚 Langtang region. Langtang was the area hardest hit by Nepal鈥檚 devastating 7.8-magnitude quake; the valley is just over the border from Shishapangma. 鈥淚 saw the peak that had the avalanche,鈥 says Anker. 鈥淚 couldn鈥檛 see down into the runout zone, but I saw the serac that cut loose. It was the closest I had been to being with Alex since his death. I had a super intense dream when I was over there.鈥

In the dream, Anker was at a speaking engagement. Lowe walked into the room, and immediately Anker broke down and fell to his knees. 鈥淚 ask if he sees/knows the story with the boys, sees how they鈥檝e been raised,鈥 Anker wrote in his journal. 鈥淚 ask him why he disappeared.鈥澛

The film manages to explain the team's return to Meru, even if you want to shout at the screen as if the three men are coeds reentering the haunted house they've just escaped from.

In Meru, Anker opens up in a way that he鈥檚 never done before, discussing Lowe鈥檚 death with Vasarhelyi behind the camera. 鈥淪urvivor鈥檚 guilt is a bear,鈥 he says.

To deal with his inner turmoil, Anker threw himself into his job as a spokesman for the North Face. He saw a therapist, but it wasn鈥檛 as helpful as talking to other climbers who had lost friends and also struggled with the internal voice that questioned why one man died and one got to go on living. Gradually, he slid into the mentoring role that Stump, Lowe, and Seth Shaw鈥攁nother of Anker鈥檚 teachers鈥攈ad played for him. It all came to a head in September 2011 back on Meru.

Early in the trip, the weight of the three men snapped one of the stanchions supporting the portaledge frame. They repaired it with a splint made of ice screws and athletic tape. Inside they spooned, ate little more than couscous, and otherwise suffered by their own doing for seven days to get a shot at the summit. For climbers, the film鈥檚 audio of avalanches coming down around them and of Chin tapping on a precarious jumble of unstable blocks with his wall hammer will induce a Pavlovian palm sweat. For everyone else, there鈥檚 the moment when singer Jos茅 Gonz谩lez鈥檚 鈥淭he Storm鈥 comes in just as the men hit their groove on the mountain. Even if you鈥檝e never climbed anything but plastic holds in a gym, you鈥檒l nod and have this little moment of, Yeah, I kinda get it now. On the ledge in the still-frigid sun, Anker is there, exhaling.聽

Anker on Meru in 2011.
Anker on Meru in 2011. (Jimmy Chin)

This time around, the weather cooperated. Anker led 16 of 29 pitches on the wall. The summit pitch was his by rights, but he handed Chin the rope and said, 鈥淛immy this is your lead. It鈥檚 your turn to take the reins.鈥澛

鈥淭he scene where Conrad gave me the lead wasn鈥檛 in the film until a month before we were done,鈥 says Chin.聽

鈥淭hat was such a clear and articulate character moment for Conrad,鈥 says Vasarhelyi. 鈥淚t brings to life the type of person Conrad is鈥攈elping these younger climbers find their voice.鈥澛

Post-summit, 2011.
Post-summit, 2011. (Jimmy Chin)

After summiting Meru, Anker got in touch with David Lama, 24, a Red Bull鈥搒ponsored alpinist whose mother is Austrian and whose father is Sherpa. The two plan to join forces on some other big, frigid wall. And in the summer of 2016, Anker and Chin will likely reunite to mentor another well-known climber, Alex Honnold. 鈥淚t鈥檚 time to get Alex in some double boots,鈥 says Anker, referring to the insulated mountaineering footwear that high altitude requires. In 2016, the trio will head to Thalay Sagar, the 22,651-foot pyramid of rock and ice that sits just to the west of Mount Meru.聽

Anker鈥檚 continued success is proof that this type of climbing isn鈥檛 just about being strong. It鈥檚 about playing the long game. Chin, a father himself now, may have to keep his ass really safe, too, but Anker, 52, shows no signs of slowing. He recognizes that his days of keeping up with men half his age may be numbered. But only just. In April, he told me, 鈥淚 figure I鈥檝e only got ten more years to do this stuff.鈥 聽聽 聽

Grayson Schaffer wrote about ultra-cyclist Juliana Buhring in the May issue.

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